now

looks like i forgot
looks like i dont remember
i refuse to let it in
and run after the forgotton
maybe its time to remind myself
that word ... one day will be spoken again.

whisper

I sit at my window
the rain taps that familar sound
the wind is whispering at me again
can you hear it...
hear the truth
the forgotten words
the missed expressions
the life goes on
day by day
i can still feel you on the wind

another.

I can write what i really want here
because you'll never read it
I can say what i really mean here
because you'll never see it
you told me once you're scared what you'll find
see something that resembled him
now you're scared of seeing what resembles you.
why do i carry this on?
why do i still let it hurt?
im sick of the meaningless
and right now im sick of you
goodnight to the weeping
goodnight to the strong
I saw you from a far
I truely wish i was wrong
the strenght is wasted on you.

yes

last night i felt the warmth
today is oh so cold
and the pattern continues
who's left standing?

i see

your eyes could melt the coldest heart
they did
your smile has the warmth of the days you forgot
...
here i stand
never able to see the light of day
or the mirror of yesterday
stumbling from yesterday to tomorrow
can you see it yet?
the regret smeared across your face
its not mine to have
i regret not , as i did everything in my power
and there you stand.

today

Can't you just admit it?
tell me the truth and stop the pain
So long i hate the taste of the memory
honesty is a lost cause ... you missed the start
you missed the point
forget me not as i am not the lost one
not snymore
remember the day,
oh yea it didnt matter to you
let me go!
just let me go!

today

i cant pretend anymore
the life once worshiped
and i still hide behind you
you broke the once strong
you lost the forsaken son
'NEVER AGAIN' she screams
lost in the moment
lust over love
its easier that way
and it goes on ...

lust filled lonilness

touch the love struck streets with your lust filled hand
hold your breathe a little longer so she can catch up
she maybe a few steps forward in ways but not others
then she finds your lips again your mind goes racing
shes like nothing you've ever tasted before
ignite the life
invite the soul
the night of pleasure continues ...

nightmare called truth

Walking around this nightmare
holding onto our dreams
wishing you wouldnt let go
praying youll hold me again
the taste so sweet
the way our lips meet
im always not enough
what i want is never good enough
your heart is sweetier
memories so broken
its over now
yet again so close but yet so far

...

We walk into a new relationship
Trampling all over the old
Sleeping on someone else’s ghost
Trodden on someone else memories
You may forget they have a past
And fall deeper than you hopped
But don’t you worry the past will always raise it’s evil head
It will always hold someone else hand
You may focus on me leaving, there being the only thing keeping us apart
But there is always the past, haunting us and destroying the future
I can’t stop falling for you
My heart is no longer in the leaving
I don’t care for much anymore
My heart is pounding just writing this
Guess what it was you I was running from in the first place
Because you’re who I can be with
Please just hold my hand
I want you
But I believe I broke that
It’s gone now
just hold my hand

.

So turns out i can't let myself be happy
...
fabulous

truth

your eyes melt the bad memories
but the longer i stay the harder it will be
your touch
the tenderest yet holding me in the state of mind that isnt right for today
i think of the past
due to me being scared of what tomorrow brings holding your hand
i don't think i miss him
i miss knowing , know how he could hurt me
knowning that the pain was easy to deal with
my walls back up sweetheart
those tears reminded me of him
not in a way i ever want to think of him
your perfect
but shes here now
my time to leave
goodbye <3

the touch on my skin gives me tingles
the butterflies with every kiss
and you arms keep me safe

then you pull away
i know why
its the best thing to do
but i cant do this much longer


i cant be in the same circle with a better person
i cant pretend that i dont see you pushing me away



you really ae prefect ... and i'm sure she will think the same

today will have to wait till tomorrow

So i'm looking for my heart
finding that missing piece to start out again
and then the hard truth hits
ive found it ... just before i leave
to start with my heart couldnt be his because of another
now i cant have his due to another
now i must leave
and live with the fact
that he will love another
and ill never feel that touch again
wake up in his arms
or feel complete next to him
he fixed me in such a short time
made more impact on me in th last few months than many have in years


you fit perfectly darling and part of me will always hope that one day youll be mine <3

do you see?

she stands there wating for you
will you ever get there?
she wonders
that turning point that has brought you to a stand still
the memoriers that make her wait
but then ...
the thought occurs
were you ever who she wanted ?
and if you were... is that part of you still alive ?

im sorry but i don't want you to be my first regret

THE CHASE

how we run after those who only want part of us
how we yearn for the parts of them that don't exsist
how we cry at night
shuddering from the unknown
how again we make the mistakes
the path that was chosen for us
or the path we wish to chose
which is the right one?
which is recoverable?

your voice still lingers on her neck <3

...

lie with her a moment longer
hold her ever more tightly than you did before
and whisper her name
she would melt
and hold you higher than your dreams
never settle
never dream

im sorry for the hurt ive caused
but the tears you seen ... youve been repaid

i miss those nights
i miss the knowing


im now so lost
its still not showing ...

truth time

what i want most ...
is you to still be there in the morning
understand my pain and take it all in
stop forgetting 'IM HERE TO!'
and just smile
is it too much thsi time?
will you run from your mistakes again?
ive sen you walk way more times than sense
and if you do again i wont come back

please

you do realise i care more about the part of thats died than you?
you get that ... right?
how you could hold be and make it better
the nights we lay there
the knowing that we had soething ... there was something
the better person he was
i stll remember
even if you dont
i still care even though you dont know how to
... when will you let me go?
for real this time ...

!

here i am
dont you see me?
im still here
ive been here longer than i can remember
to furfil your needs
where are mine you may ask
theyve never mattered before
so why should they now
dont pretend like i matter
im done with those lies
your spell will fade ... as will you