I hate when people can see into me
see behind my mask
into who i really am
weak, vulnerable and defenceless
is not something i feel comfortable with
even with someone i'm very close with
my heart isnt storng like it once was

new year

the bells went
and i coulnd't lie for you
they were more important
the truth behind the lie
the moment behind the weakness
for once put myself first and see the beauty of the world
see what im missing or really where i should be <3