the touch on my skin gives me tingles
the butterflies with every kiss
and you arms keep me safe

then you pull away
i know why
its the best thing to do
but i cant do this much longer


i cant be in the same circle with a better person
i cant pretend that i dont see you pushing me away



you really ae prefect ... and i'm sure she will think the same

today will have to wait till tomorrow

So i'm looking for my heart
finding that missing piece to start out again
and then the hard truth hits
ive found it ... just before i leave
to start with my heart couldnt be his because of another
now i cant have his due to another
now i must leave
and live with the fact
that he will love another
and ill never feel that touch again
wake up in his arms
or feel complete next to him
he fixed me in such a short time
made more impact on me in th last few months than many have in years


you fit perfectly darling and part of me will always hope that one day youll be mine <3

do you see?

she stands there wating for you
will you ever get there?
she wonders
that turning point that has brought you to a stand still
the memoriers that make her wait
but then ...
the thought occurs
were you ever who she wanted ?
and if you were... is that part of you still alive ?

im sorry but i don't want you to be my first regret

THE CHASE

how we run after those who only want part of us
how we yearn for the parts of them that don't exsist
how we cry at night
shuddering from the unknown
how again we make the mistakes
the path that was chosen for us
or the path we wish to chose
which is the right one?
which is recoverable?

your voice still lingers on her neck <3

...

lie with her a moment longer
hold her ever more tightly than you did before
and whisper her name
she would melt
and hold you higher than your dreams
never settle
never dream

im sorry for the hurt ive caused
but the tears you seen ... youve been repaid

i miss those nights
i miss the knowing


im now so lost
its still not showing ...

truth time

what i want most ...
is you to still be there in the morning
understand my pain and take it all in
stop forgetting 'IM HERE TO!'
and just smile
is it too much thsi time?
will you run from your mistakes again?
ive sen you walk way more times than sense
and if you do again i wont come back

please

you do realise i care more about the part of thats died than you?
you get that ... right?
how you could hold be and make it better
the nights we lay there
the knowing that we had soething ... there was something
the better person he was
i stll remember
even if you dont
i still care even though you dont know how to
... when will you let me go?
for real this time ...

!

here i am
dont you see me?
im still here
ive been here longer than i can remember
to furfil your needs
where are mine you may ask
theyve never mattered before
so why should they now
dont pretend like i matter
im done with those lies
your spell will fade ... as will you

so on

When will you let me go
when will it be enough
my heart can already not take it
the emontional bag i have punch became
to fill the emptiness your life holds
to love the one you hate
to hate the one you love
you havebecome the one i adore
hate
worship
desire
and dred


'you worthless piece of skin'

what may come

she walks into a room
a room shes never seen before
a life shes way to start
and there you are


it may have years , months or days
however long it has been her heart is pounding
every feeling floods to her stomach and gives her those butterflies
the ones she shares for you

the pair walk over to eachother
and without a word his lips meet hers
theres no one else in the room thats worth a second thought
they found eachother ... agian
after all these years

.

that four letter word i can never say
the emotions i hold back evveryday

the wishes that will never come true
the day that you walked on through

and yet im still here standing


... why?

questions

you never know anyone until you let them in
and yet how do we know what they say is true...
you have to trust to know the truth
but then what if what they say is a lie
you end up hurt because you trust them
and they walk away ...

then what if they end somthing you had because of one of many reasons
and you pretend to be ok so they dont see your hurt
and so you can stay friends
but then they think that you never carse and theres nothing left between you
when all oyu think about is them

or what if you hold nto to something that was never there?

i guess we will never know

never forget

never forget the words that he whispered to you
you know the ones
the ones he then told her

never forget the way he tasted
remeber the night ..
your friend told you thats how she tastes

never forget the way his hand fit in yours
how comforting they were
until the night he held her while you were in th same room

who do we trusr
t if we cant trust our own
who do we love
when the lie isnt stong enough