im done apologising ...

this is just for you
no one else, just for you
we've said our piece, the pain has been caused
the tears have been shed and the wounds mend
but i've told you before ... your still here

i still feel you
the memories still haunt me
i hope they pass
but even know the area is hostile
i cant forget ... you fit perfectly
you held me when it hurt
you kissed me when i needed it
that was the laughter that i craved for
the smile i coulldnt replace!

...

you held me so high
i proved you so wrong
i showed the person ive made up
the one there to hurt
to cause the pain that no one deserves
the one that appears to stop you getting in
andto stop you truely hurting me


the true colours of something you would never expect!

what ive done

the mistakes i have made i am yet to regret
i will apologise for my downfalls that the pain i may have caused
but each step i take
to the right, to the wrong
i worry of the pain and unnecessary anger i have caused
even though i'm far from having the abilty of feel again

demons haunt my exsitance
your shadow is all but chalk dust,
that i just need to wait to be blown away by the wind
and day by day your taste forgets to linger

the new moon rises and i can see my spotlight
waiting to take my step
i stand there alone
distant memories of what i had
hopeful wishes of what may come

always the same

so many storiers
with all the same ending
different paths, different people
same start, same ending
they come
they love
some may call it just some extreme emotion
Usually a form of happiness
they leave
but not without a part of your heart
you may leave
she may leave
you both may leave
but the ending is always the same
its all over with no othe option
no other future
eveyone the same
goondnight sweetheart ... i can't do this anymore

the simple truth

Have you ever noticed ...
That each lover you have touches you in a different way ... but with the same ending.
The hardest thing to forget about, when i comes to someone you cared about is the way they :
Held you,
Those kisses on your forhead,
The way the stroked your face,
How they played with your hair.

And more importantly ...
That feeling at the pit of your stomach
When the world flips upside down
and you swallow it all in a oner.

The fact that every person you care about seems to do the same
But in completely different at the same time
Some stronger,
Some weaker
But all so intense

How at this moment in time they are all that matter
and yet next year it could be someone else...

Your heart is beating faster just for them!

But let me add,
This is without bringing love into the equation
This saddens and intrigues me all at the same time

all in one look

surrounded by people
the conversation intertwine into a murmer,
under the music that fills my head...

'i thought he was worth it'
'i can't believe she did this to me'
and then the expressions alone...
'should i really be with her, wheres the spark?'
'your all i want but im scared im not enough'

No matter what life we lead
No matter how different we are
We all have the same thoughtd, dreams and devastations!

not interested

you've had your impact
now leave my life
give me back what i deserve
and get the fuck out

you've had your say
i've heard your lies
i dont want anything to do with your pathetic existence

leave now before the words hit deeper than the scars
I'm yet to show you ...
leave beforeyour the mistake i can't erase
Fuck you!

the next step

you are what you see
and yet you can be so more
the mystery underneath the lie
the story behind the book

i wish it was as easy as me as it is for you
and then again i dont
i'd rather feel than become so lost your spirte is dying to be reborn
i miss is more of an i wish

the paths crossed at the wrong time
our memories will always be intangled
its wheather you chose to remember or not